Friday, November 23, 2012

ABC Diet

So I'm starting the ABC diet tomorrow after an awful week with my grandparents.  check out this post for more information. I'll try to post every day with progress and intakes and things like that. 

My week has been crazy. My grandparents are dying, my house is a mess, my life is crazy. Yet all these good things are happening. I got a great SAT score, I may be able to go to these great concerts, I'm going to be doing SO MUCH TRAVELING IT WILL BE INSANE! It almost feels like I don't deserve all these good things. But I do. And I try to keep reminding myself of that. I've worked hard, so I deserve success. The end. 

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  1. My grandma is also living out her last days. It must be hard having both of them go at once.

    I'd love to be support buddies =) I'll put my email here just in case you need me for anything: marya_n_me@yahoo.com

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  2. thanks love. I think the hard part is that they aren't even really people any more. It's like they're children again. You know what I mean?

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    1. Definitely! In the most horrible way. Like, it would be cool if they were running around and playing on the monkey bars, but it's the bad part of being a child.

      Anyway, I'm about five-foot four-and-a-half-inches. And I haven't put my weight in my blog yet because I'm so embarrassed, but it's 197.4 as of today.

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  3. I'll delete that comment if you want me to. reveal it when you're good and ready. I remember studying the European romantics sophomore year and how they idealize children. I prefer the American Romantic view that children are just as misguided as adults. And can't fend for themselves. I was never completely a child. I was so cautious. I was just always too old for my age. Once I'm an adult, that shouldn't matter any more. Which will be such a relief. What I want to tell you, as someone who is deliberately sabotaging her own recovery, is that the weight will come off with time and it's not worth doing it in an unhealthy way. The internet ruined me as a human being but I refuse further recovery because I feel like I'm getting nowhere. But I can also play devil's advocate and tell you to starve and fast and buck up.

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    1. I appreciate the advice, especially from someone who has semi-recovered. But, ya know, I have an eating disorder, the weight goes up and down, and it's not healthy, but that's the way it is for me.

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    2. that was sort of what I was trying to say. it wasn't really advice-- believe me, I know better than to try and preach about anything. it was more of a vent. >_< yeah, I want to understand it myself because, at this point, my ED voice is stronger than my recovery voice. I wouldn't wish this on my worst enemy, yet recovery just sucks ass so much that I'm going to take a break for a while.

      people in glass houses (me) shouldn't throw stones.

      have you ever seen the movie Moonstruck?

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    3. 80s romantic comedy with Cher and Nicholas Cage. not much better than that XD. http://www.putlocker.com/file/D874BFDDBBD1731E#

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    4. I'm sorry, but why did you bring up that movie? Lol sorry

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    5. haha I am just watching it at the moment. and really enjoying it ^_^ it's been a while since I've seen it...back in my Cher superfan days xD

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    6. I'm watching a documentary about two very strange people who are obsessed with the 80 pop star Tiffany. It's ridiculous!

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    7. what is this called?! I have never heard of "tiffany"

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  5. "I Think We're Alone Now," which is also the title of one of her hit songs. She was only big for a year or two in the 80s, which makes these stalker people even more crazy

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  6. Hey! I nominated your blog for the Liebster Award! Check out my blog for the rules.

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  7. Hey there sweetie. I'm sorry to hear your life is kind of crazy right now. I really hope things start going better for you soon <3
    I have nominated you for the Liebster Blog Award! Check out my post on it for more information <3
    -Emma

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